Monday, January 6, 2014

A New Resolve to Be Completely You

Dear friends,

Hello and happy 2014! It’s a new year, and I’m excited about it. I hope you are, too.

At the end of each year I do a lot of reflecting. I used to sit in the middle of my bedroom floor for days – no TV, no music – cleaning out closets, dressers and file cabinets. Then I’d join the line of people at Goodwill – dropping off bags full of old things that, hopefully, would one day become new to a loving home. After all of that I’d curl up with a blanket, a pen and a journal for hours.

Married life has changed my routine somewhat. This year, I didn’t get to do as much cleaning (poor me, lol) as I used to. However, I was able to spend the vast majority of New Year’s Eve with that blanket, a pen and my journal.

Writing has been my method of processing things for as long as I can remember. If I have questions about anything I simply sit down and have a come to Jesus meeting on the pages of my journal. I write what I know. I write what I don’t know. And eventually clarity will come. If not clarity, at minimum, peace…

As 2013 ended, one of the things I didn’t know was what 2014 would look like for my blog space. You didn’t hear a lot from me last year. Instead of blogging, I was doing a lot of “blog soul searching.” You see, I love blogging, but I’ll admit the past couple of years have been a struggle.

Although I was quiet on the site last year, I was actively studying the blogging world and other bloggers, with my own little piece of real estate in mind. I spent months pouring over similar sites, following people on Twitter, reading books, listening to podcasts and scouring Facebook pages. Whew! I get tired again just thinking about it all. You name it I did it and, sadly, the greatest thing this exercise brought me was more discouragement.

“That which has been is that which will be,
And that which has been done is that which will be done.
So there is nothing new under the sun.”Ecclesiastes 1:9 NASB

In the midst of all my searching, I was reminded that there’s nothing new under the sun. And boy did I see that truth as I perused other blog sites. I sunk deeper into the quicksand of comparison. In my heart I began to wonder, what’s the use? There are so many others speaking, seemingly far more eloquently than I. Why would any woman listen to me? For the very first time in more than four years of blogging I seriously considered the possibility of letting it go. So, on New Year’s Eve I began to write what I know and to ponder what I don’t know. When I first started this journey back in 2009, here is what I knew:

  1. I knew there was nothing new under the sun.
  2. I knew there were other women bloggers.
  3. I knew they weren’t me.
  4. I knew they didn’t have my voice
  5. I knew they didn’t have my stories.
  6. I knew they didn’t have my heart.
  7. I knew there’s a community for everyone. And those who are meant to hang out here will come and do just that.
  8. I knew that communities need only to consist of 2 or more people. And I always said if there was one woman out there who connected with the thoughts, stories, laughs and lessons I shared, then I’d gladly share with just that one woman.

What I don’t know is simple. I don’t know what the future holds, and that’s ok.

This blog space has seen many changes over the past few years. I am preparing for many more as I learn to embrace its title and purpose for myself. My vision is for Be Completely You with Monica Nixon to be a community of women becoming beautifully. I’ll let those words marinate with you for a while, and if you’re still uncertain about what I mean I’ll elaborate in a post to come. In the meantime, welcome to 2014. It’s going to be amazing. My goals this year are simple.

  1. I want to be a woman becoming beautifully and doing so comfortably and confidently – free and satisfied in my own unique skin.
  2. I want to challenge myself to more out of the boat experiences.
  3. I want to share all of the above with a community of friends.

Number three is where you come in. I hope you’ll join me in this little community and even invite your friends. The more the merrier.

Final note (before this post turns into a book): This year, I’ll be featuring a year-long series called 52 weeks to Be Completely You or #52weekstoBE for short. Each Monday for the entire year (Oh LORD help me!) I’ll post a challenge to BE. Some will be fun. Others will be challenging. The goal is simply to become stronger, more confident women on our journey of becoming beautifully. So get ready. #52weekstoBE starts tomorrow.

Until tomorrow…

Friday, September 16, 2011

Save the Date

Writing isn’t coming as easy for me as I’d like these days. So, to write this post I had to go “old school”. I had to go back to basics, back to my first love, back to a method I haven’t used in a LONG time. I began this post in a notebook. Yes, it was a wild west type show down between me and my pen and a blank piece of wide-ruled paper. Desperate times call for desperate measures, my friends, and it was about to get ugly.

I used to write music reviews. When I first started I could not sit in front of my laptop and tap out a review. I don’t know why, but I had to put pen to paper first – you know, get the ink flowing before my fingers could do any walking.

Over time, however, I began whipping out reviews with no scratch paper in sight. Although, I’m still very on the record about my ongoing love affair with pen and paper, it was pretty neat, to me, to see the growth and transition take place. Today, I had to return to my first writing love.

Now that I’ve given you a little of my writing back story, I’ll move on to the main reason I’m here.

It’s coming.

What’s coming?

I’m glad you asked.

Remember all the redecorating I’ve mentioned over the past many months. You know, I bought a new home, but I hadn’t furnished and decorated yet, so I was all torn about entertaining guests. I’ve probably been talking about it for more like years than months. Well….it’s almost finished, and I’m SO EXCITED!

On the day my dad died, I received an email from the designer that contained the first set of design samples for our new place. I can still picture me, lying in bed desperately trying to occupy my mind by viewing these blog design samples in the dark, on a smart phone, through a veil of tears. Even then, I could sense that God was giving me a starting point. Using that one little email from a woman who had no idea how significantly my life had changed only hours earlier, the Lord was giving me a place to begin again, a place to pick up where life left off, an assignment to come back and finish at a time when I was thinking, “what’s the point”. He’s such a sweet Father.

So, I’m going to drop a date on you and then I have to run. Before I said my “good night” and got off the phone for the evening with someone special I promised said someone special that I’d be in the bed, lights out by 11pm. He knows I have to rise early in the a.m., so he tries to encourage me to get to bed at a decent hour. Isn’t he thoughtful?! Please, PLEASE don’t tell him it’s 11:02pm and I’m running a little late, ok?! 🙂 Thank you, my friend!

Anyhoo, here goes…

Ladies, I need you to save the date. Mark your calendars for Monday October 17th. I’m inviting each of you over to my new place. Maybe we’ll have an online tea party or something girly like that. We’ll see, but I hope you’ll save the date and plan to join me.

Stay tuned as I’ll be sharing more on how I felt the day I received the launch date and something I thought was special about it. Between now and then I’ll also try my best to use a few of my posts to paint a picture and take you on a tour (all using words, of course) of the new place. I hope you will enjoy the new place as much as I have already enjoyed just looking at the template for it! LOL… By the way did I tell you I was excited?

So, that’s what’s new with me. Now it’s your turn. What’s new with you?

Until next time….

Completely sleepy,

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Under Construction

Hey there!  I’m sure some of you have wondered what the deal is with my new blog home.  My bloggy friend Wanda (Hey Wanda!! 🙂 ) over at The Watered Soul asked me about it recently. I decided that if she is interested in what’s going on in my blog world, then maybe another one or two of you may be, as well. 🙂

So let me fill you in.

Well, my new blog space is still under construction.  The foundation has been laid, meaning I have a new domain name that is ALL MINE (no more .wordpress.com ending).  The framework has gone up, meaning there is a blog template in place that accommodates many of the elements I want – 2 columns instead of 3, a footer section, my logo in the header, freedom to play around with fonts and colors, etc.  Hopefully, this new home provides me with room to grow as I continue on my writing journey, and I hope you’ll hang in there with me.

I’m so thankful to Lisa for doing her thing – setting the structure up for me and hosting it for a full year!  What a blessing.  The only thing I need now is designer to dress it up and make it look, well, look like home!  You know, kind of like selecting wall colors and placing pictures and mirrors on the walls, sitting candles all over the place, and installing built-in CD shelves and book cases to hold my huge music collection and all of my books!  LOL…  Yeah, you get the idea.  I need a designer to help me make my new place look and feel like my blog “home”!

So, if you know a blog designer who designs for WordPress blogs (because some people only design for Blogger or other platforms) or if you know someone who can create a design template for to be installed on my blog, leave a comment and let me know.  Otherwise, I’ll continue to take my time, visit designers’ sites, and pray that I can select (and AFFORD) a great designer for my new home.

Now for the name….  Initially, I wanted the name to be a surprise, but since you’re my friends and you’ve been hanging out with me for a while, I thought I’d go ahead and share.  Besides, I just can’t hold this water much longer.  The name of my new blog home is (DRUMROLL PLEASE!!):

Completely You!  I know you want to know where the name comes from (I’ve had it for years now), but guess what.  I’m not going to tell you!  Instead, I’ll let you sit with it for a while, and I’ll share my thoughts on the name in a later post.  A girl has to save something for later, right?

So what happens in the meantime?  Good question.  I’ve been torn, actually.  You know how some people don’t want friends, family or guests coming into their home while it’s under construction due to renovation, remodeling, or simple home repair projects.  They don’t want company during that time because things are out of place or don’t quite look the way they want them to look.  Well, I’m feeling like one of those people.  I know!  I know it’s probably very superficial of me, but I’m just admitting to you where I am.  Pray for your sister!  I am praying about it, though.  I want to share my journey with you, and that probably should mean even the “under construction” part of it.  After all that’s what I’m doing with my life journey, right?  I mean, isn’t that where we all are anyway – under construction?  As long as we’re on this earth and walking with Christ, we will be a works in progress.

In many places, God’s word speaks to the fact that our lives, our character, are under construction.

Philippians 1:6 NASB – For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.

James 1:4 NASB – And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

Our perfection comes through the Spirit of the Lord in us.  On our own, we are simply striving to build a home – a nice temple residence where He may live and be glorified through us.

So, we’ll see what happens.  I’ll keep praying for freedom from my vanity.  Help me Jesus!!  In the meantime, I’d like to know what you think.  Would you like to jump on into the new home and go ahead and continue our journey under construction there?  Let me know.

Completely ME,