Tuesday, September 25, 2012

60 Days Until…

the biggest day of my life.

I was determined to post today. So it was only fitting that anything that could try to block me from getting a post out WOULD try to block me from getting a post out.

First, my power cord to my laptop stopped working just as my battery was completely depleted, of course. Now that’s not really a huge deal, because you know I will put to use a beautiful journal and a great writing pen any day. However, I still had to figure out how to get the post, well, posted. I could have used my trusty smart phone, but who wants to thumb type a blog post on a device that fits in the palm of my hand. Thank God for the dinosaur of a desktop computer I keep in my home.

So here I am. I won’t keep you long. I really just wanted to say hi. I’ve been wanting to write to you for some time now. Since today is sort of a special mile marker, I figured I’d commemorate by  getting my finger tips wet and dropping you a line.

In just 60 short days my life will change forever. I will go from being a Miss to a Mrs, from unmarried to married, from a bachelorette to a wife. Can you believe it? I used to always say when this season in my life arrived I’d write about it. I vowed to tell the story of every bump and bend in the road I traveled to get here. But life happened, and needless to say I haven’t written a word outside the precious pages of my journal in quite some time.

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on the countless conversations I’ve had, over the years, with my fellow single girlfriends. I remember the glaring relationship faux pas, the lessons learned, and the painful reality and general consensus that even us church girls are clueless when it comes to what a healthy relationship looks like and how to be a part of one. Sadly, even our churches are very often missing the mark in this area.

I always said I would just write about my experience when the time came. Tell the story – the ups and downs, the good, the bad and the ugly (and believe me, there’s plenty of ugly to go around) – mistakes made, lessons learned, wisdom gained (hopefully 🙂 ). I figured maybe there’s a woman out there somewhere who simply needs to know she’s not the only one who is where she is or who has been where she’s  been.

I thought today was a good day to stop by, if only for her. I have lots to say. Part of my problem is I simply spend too much time thinking about how to say it instead of just saying it. I can’t promise any particular frequency, at least not right now. But I will promise to write. Let the words fall where they may, right?! 🙂

Completely me,