Monday, January 11, 2010

Start Somewhere

“Why are you waiting?  Gotta start somewhere.  Nothing is changing, til you start somewhere.  Freedom is calling.  Love will take you there.  But it’s up to you to start somewhere.” – “Start Somewhere” by Calvin Nowell

I’m the queen of procrastination.  Correction:  I used to be the queen of procrastination.  I’ve declared that procrastination is one of the things I let fade to black along with the year that just ended.  I didn’t always “put off until tomorrow” just for the sake of putting things off.  My procrastination was rooted largely in fear.  I’ve never enjoyed the idea of making the wrong decision, doing the wrong thing, or doing the right thing the wrong way, at the wrong time, or on the wrong day.  🙂 So I’d wait, and wait, and wait some more, hoping the absolutely, POSITIVELY CORRECT day, time, place, thing, and way would come to me.  Then I’d move.  So guess when that typically happened.  You guessed it.  NEVER!

For me, one of the most delightful lessons I learned in 2009 was that God knows what He’s doing even when we don’t like what He’s doing.  The often painful processes I endured throughout the last 12 months were intended to yield a specific result.  That result was clarity.  I ended 09 with more clarity than I’ve ever had regarding who I am, what I am called to do in this season, and the things God has branded on my heart and made super sensitive to me.  Such clarity provides a sense of freedom I never imagined.

I am, first and foremost, a child of the King.  I am super imperfect yet wildly loved by the most High God.  That truth still floors me!  Beyond that I’m a wife, a mother (no I’m not married yet, nor do I have children, but this IS who I am), a teacher/minister, and a writer.  God shaped me to be a vessel of restoration, transformation, and freedom for women.  Marriage and God’s church are the two things He (certainly not I) unmistakeably seared on my heart.

So now that the lens to the future is slightly less blurry, what do I do with all that I see?  I dunno!!!  LOL!  What I do know, now, is that I have to start somewhere and trust the Lord to lead me from there, wherever there happens to be.  This blog was a part of my process and a part of my “starting somewhere” knowing, at that time, only a fraction of what I know today.  Now, with additional clarity, it’s time for me to start somewhere…again.  I believe it’s that time for you, as well.

What are the ideas and dreams you have, the gifts ablaze inside you, the vision that you only see a glimpse of yet you know it beams straight from the mind of God to your life?

“Why are you waiting?  Gotta start somewhere.  Nothing is changing, til you start somewhere.  Freedom is calling.  Love will take you there.  But it’s up to you to start somewhere.”

These words are lyrics from a song I really love, by Calvin Nowell (a Christian artist and songwriter).  When I feel like I don’t know what to do or where to begin with the visions, and dreams, and life in general, I listen to this song, and it encourages me each and every time.  So, here’s a challenge for you.  Buy the track.  Take a listen, and encourage yourself to start somewhere.

http://www.calvinnowell.com/mp3s/ (BTW,  you can click on the track to hear a preview of the song.  It should play from the exact portion of the song I’ve highlighted!  Enjoy!  Then get started!!)